Explanation

Assalamualaikum and hi. So I’ve been checking on my previous posts in this blog. And I realized that I write on this blog only when I’m upset or in a fight with someone. I bet you guys are now thinking gaduh dengan dia lagi lahtu. You guys are absolutely 100% right. Yes I’m in a fight with the same person, again.

 I still consider her as my best friend but I don’t know if she still considers me as her best friend or not. Well it’s up to her then. And no, the reason why I write this post is NOT to apologize to her. I just wanted to express my feelings. But I didn’t say that will not apologize. I will, one day, just wait.  And before I start to explain what the hell happened, I promise that I’ll TRY not to swear or put up any cursing words. I said TRY. So I’m trying.

Okay it started when I asked her a very simple question. “Buat page berapa?” I know that she knew what page we were supposed to do. And that’s why asked her. I didn’t hear what the teacher said. I was too busy day-dreaming marrying an extremely handsome guy. Maybe, I don’t know. So I asked her and I got very pissed off when she said “entah.” I felt so jhaseuirfhdhgkdfhjk

I mean like OMG I know she was on a bad mood at that time. Well actually not only at that time. EVERYTIME, ANYTIME, EVERYWHERE. Well not exactly but you know what I mean. I was pissed off so I said something that might have hurt her feeling. Oh I don’t know maybe I said “matilah kau” or “bosan aku cakap dengan kau”. Well I don’t know, how am I supposed to remember that? And than she decided not to talk to me for the whole day. And until now, she’s still not talking to me. I tried to talk to her and guess what? She ignored me. And that makes me even more pissed off.

She’s the one who caused me to hurt her. And it’s not a big deal actually. I would just have forgiven her by now but it has been days now. And we didn’t even talk. And I don’t know what’s her problem. If she has problems, she should TALK TO ME. I’m her friend. That’s what friends do. Talk to each other. That’s what girls do. I’m a girl. Girls talk. They share problems. If she doesn't like me? TELL ME LA AYOO. So then I would stop worrying about her being alone during recesses okay? See I’m very mad at her but yet I still care. Well it’s not my fault she’s now alone. She’s the one who walked away from me.

 If she has a problem with me SAY IT! Not through a very long facebook message seriously I'm not the kind of person who likes to read. I want her to complain or whatever right infront of me. Face to face, heart to heart, lips to lips. Lips to lips? That sounds soo wrong. Well you know what am i trying to say right? But honestly, i do care about her. Izzah is like an angel. She treats me and that girl well.  Balanced and fair. That’s why I love you Izzah Syakira Suhaidi.

 And I’m not sure if I want that girl to read this or not. If she, yes you. The one that I’m talking about. If you’re reading this right now. I just wanted to say....

HI

 Look how pathetic I am can't even make up my mind what to say to her. I'm such winnie loser.

Okay the second thing that I want to explain is about One Direction. I’m not a directioner. I’m just a fan. I could not resist the cuteness from the 5 boys especially when I found out that they support Manchester United. GLORY GLORY MAN UNITED GLORY GLORY ZAYN MALIK GLORY GLORY LOUIS TOMLINSON GLORY GLORY HARRY STYLES GLORY GLORY LIAM PAYNE BUT NOT NIALL BECAUSE HE HATES MAN UNITED.

 Well it’s okay as long as Niall has his cuteness and his sexy irish accent, I will love him. So it’s now clear that the main reason why I love One Direction is because they support Manchester United. Who would not like guys who are very attractive, can sing very well and SUPPORT MANCHESTER UNITED? Not me. So dear people, I’m just a fan. Nothing more. But if I had a chance to yank their shirts off, I would take that chance and do that. Who wouldn’t?

Now to the third. Remember the D.S.W thingy stuff? Each letter stands for a name. My crushes name. I’m proudly to say that I don’t like them anymore. Want to know why?  Okay lets start with D. I’m annoyed by him. I don’t even know why. And S too. I don’t even know why I stopped liking him. I used to blush whenever I see them but now I just don’t. And W, he knew that I like him because these two uisedhfnjsdigndgvn (I’m trying not to swear so this happens) jskjdfkdgkjfk boys told him that I like him. And to the boys who told him about me liking him,

 So I felt very awkward and embarrassed  meeting him. And I sense a little bit of “ugh perempuan ni” on his face when he sees me. So I don’t like him. No more crushes in school. And that explains why I’m not wearing my tudung properly like I used to wear. So now I don’t have to act ayu. Now I can be myself. Prepare to meet the real Nur Imanina bt Mohd Adzhar. Talking about guys, here are some few characteristics of a guy that would love to marry:

1.      Handsome/cute

2.      Tall

3.      Knows how to play football very well

4.      Supports Man United

5.      Soleh wa musleh (LOL)

6.      Knows how to impress my father

7.      Knows how to cook very well

8.      Likes children and cats

9.      Likes to dance

10.  Intelligent

11.  Funny

12.  NOT A PERVERT

13.  Rich?

If there is a guy who has all of these characteristics, do marry me. Thank you. And Assalamualaikum selawat ke atas Nabi Muhammad S.A.W dapat pahala lol okay bye.

That Bitch

Assalamualaikum and hi. Well you've read the title right? That Bitch. Well she used to be my best best forever and ever sayang muah flying kiss everywhere :* friend. But then we started to fight. Like a lot of fights. A plenty, a dozen or more fights. Especialy since she started to date him. Oh you know, him. That guy.

*switch languange* Okay tak nak cerita pasal gaduh yang dulu - dulu. Cerita yang baru punya. And it really pissed me off. Mula-mula kau tweet something. Okay aku tahu kau tengah gurau. Tapi gurau kena ada limit, jangan sampai orang sakit hati. Bila aku marah, kau dengan that guy boleh lagi ingat aku still main main. OMG! Aku marah la gila.

Okay fine, kau ada minta maaf. Lepastu kau tweet "that one friend that you hate" Memang tak terasa la kan sebenarnya. So aku pun balas la tweet tu, dengan pelbagai carut-marut semua. And kau minta maaf sekali lagi. And i forgive you, again. At that time, i was super happy, lega and can't wait to hug you. Until you started to tweet everything that he (that guy) said to you. And you know how much annoying it is.

But i tried to be cool and say "it's okay, they're madly in love. let them be. just pretend like it's nothing" And yes, i was cool at that time. Until Berry dm'ed me and asked me what happened between me and you. We're fine. That's my thought. And berry told me to check your tumblr. I opened your tumblr and i was like what the hell! What is wrong with you bitch? I thought that fucking stupid fight was over? You said nak belanja baskin robin and stuff. So what the hell is this? Shit? You have given too much shit on my patience. My patience has its own limit. And of course you just fucking ripped it off the limit. Waaaaaay off the limit.

Kau tulis aku tak pernah kisah pasal feelings kau? FUCKING EXCUSE ME BITCH, all these days i've been trying to be okay with your fucking relationship with that fucking guy. I've been trying to be nice and be friend with your fucking boyfriend so you'll be happy. I've been saying to myself that "i should be happy with your relationship, because you're my bestfriend."

And then kau tulis tak nak percaya dengan aku lagi dah? Hello? Kau yang bagitahu amin aku suka capital M. Kau yang bagitahu yang hanna suka capital H badut tu. Tu sepatutnya rahsia k. Faham tak? Rahsia. Siapa yang sepatutnya tak percaya siapa sekarang? Mula-mula sumpah aku marah gila. But i've managed myself to cool down and once again FORGIVE YOU.

And aku tahu la aku ada kutuk kau dekat Nu'man. Tapi kitorang text okay. PRIVATE. And tak bagitahu siapa siapa. Yang kau tu kutuk aku siap mention aku lagi okay. Tahu tak sakit hati? And now i think why the hell should i care about your feelings when you don't even care about mine?

Kau suka sangat dengar cakap dia, like he was your fucking husband. Well guess what? HE IS NOT YOUR FUCKING HUSBAND HE IS ONLY YOUR FUCKING BOYFRIEND. So you don't have to listen to everything that he says. Listen to us more. Me and izzah. YOUR FUCKING FRIEND, BEST FRIEND.

And there are tons of thing that i want to complain about you. But it just so hard. It hurts me, so bad. I don't expect you to apologise. Because im tired of forgiving and knowing that you'll hurt me again, again and again. I saw you tweeted "It's over" and i know that you dedicated it to me, to our friendship or what so ever. So yeah, our friendship is now over. Just like you wanted. I hope that you'll change. Not for me, but for your new best friend. 

And i'm sorry for calling you a bitch. Maybe because you've been acting like one. For your information, im crying right now. Well what do you care. Nevermind. And im sorry for my mean mean dirty words. Goodbye. Assalamualaikum :)

Talk 9

Assalamualaikum

Hi. So now im going to tell you about this girl. We used to be friends. Well, we’re still friends. I guess. Im not sure. Maybe not. Maybe we’re not friends anymore. Maybe because I can’t stand of her merajuk thingy. Every little things that I do, she’ll merajuk, merajuk, MERAJUK. 24/7 nak merajuk. Huh! Okay maybe some of it are my faults, tapi ni dah over, mengada-ngada tahap Mario Balotelli.

Cakap tudung macam orang alim pun nak merajuk. Malas nak dengar kau cakap apa pun nak merajuk. Memanglah aku malas nak dengar, kau ulang pasal benda tu berjuta-juta kali dah. Baca buku pun nak merajuk. Tak nak bagitahu something, merajuk. Kau ni apa? PMS setiap masa ke apa?

Sekarang dia nak merajuk pasal benda kecil ni pulak. Memang lah dia berhak nak marah aku. Yelah. Responsibility dia. Okay fine, I admit it. Yang aku buat tu memang salah. Salah sangat. Marahlah aku. Memang sepatutnya kau marah aku. Nama pun tanggungjawab.

 Tapi bukan tanggungjawab kau untuk merajuk berbagai. Macam putuskan silaturrahim. Nak jalankan tanggungjawab, tapi tak perlulah over sangat sampai buat dosa, langgar perintah Allah. Memutuskan silaturrahim tu berdosa tahu. Aku pun dah minta maaf, FACE-TO-FACE okay. Tak ada gelak- gelak. Aku pegang kau semua tu, cakap sorry. Tapi apa kau buat? Jalan je. Muka aku pun kau tak pandang.

Memang baguslah kan sebenarnya perangai macam tu. Kau pun ada buat salah kat aku. Banyak okay, banyak. Minta maaf pun tak. Nasib baik aku bukan jenis perempuan macam kau. Sikit-sikit nak merajuk. Tak hingin aku nak jadi perempuan macam kau. Nak merajuk sangat kan? Then go ahead! Merajuklah kau sampai mati. Kau ingat aku kisah sangat merajuk kau tu? Sorry la weh, tak kisah, tak pernah kisah, dan tak akan kisah. Sincerely, Iman yang tak kisah kau nak merajuk berbagai.And then, kau kononnya nak minta maaf. Tapi tak serious langsung. Kau cekik aku, then terus blaah. And then act macam tak ada apa apa jadi. Kau ingat aku dah maafkan kau dengan cara minta maaf kau tu. Hell no!

Whoa, marahnya aku. Okay, istighfar. Astarghfirullahalaziim. Okay. Emotional gila malam ni. Muehehe. Senyum sikit. Okay dah senyum. Ini gambar aku senyum pada malam emotional...

 Okay dah senyum dengan gediknya. Sambung marah balik. Dear budak, #PleaseTerasa. And this song below, im dedicating it special for you *senyum tak ikhlas :)

Kbye. Assalamualaikum :)